A Little Much Right Now...

Covid...

Work...

Son...

Husband...

Parents...

Home...

Life...

Just way to exhausted to keep going. Must hiberbate.

It's going to be a LONG year

The title says it all.  Its only Tuesday.  This week should have been over already. 

Just a Moment

Only for a moment, you made me happy.

Then I realized the truth and the moment was gone.

All is well in my fantasy...

Welcome to the Bloggers World

I set him up with his own blog.  Maybe writing will help him express his bottled frustrations... guess we see.

Good night! 

I'm here...

Ok...

Ok, ok, OK...

I'm here... I think.

Its been ages my friend.  I needed a break. My writing became time consuming. I knew what I wanted to say, but I just couldn't express it. I couldn't put to words the raw emotions I was feeling.

It was a good break. However, I wish I had wrote more during this Pandemic. We are literally living through history right now.

Things have been... weird... for lack of a better description lately.

An old wind has been weaving through my soul again. But...I can't. I

can't get caught up.  It hurts too much.  Too many emotions.

Saat kau memejamkan mata, katakan padaku apa yang kau mimpikan...

Apakah kau memikirkanku?

Yes... too many emotions. So exhausting to pretend.

Im scared.

YOU AREN'T CHANGING!! YOU ARE BECOMING!

 

Me: Hey God.

God: Hello, my love.

Me: I'm falling apart.

Can you put me back together?

God: I would rather not.

Me: Why?

God: Because you aren't a puzzle.

Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground?

God: Let them stay there for a while. They fell off for a reason.

Take some time and decide if you need any of those pieces back.

Me: You don't understand! I'm breaking down!

God: No - you don't understand.

You are breaking through.

What you are feeling are just growing pains.

You are shedding the things and the people in your life that are holding you back.

You aren't falling apart.

You are falling into place.

Relax.

Take some deep breaths and allow those things you don't need anymore to fall off of you.

Quit holding onto the pieces that don't fit you anymore.

Let them fall off.

Let them go.

Me: Once I start doing that, what will be left of me?

God: Only the very best pieces of you.

Me: I'm scared of changing.

God: I keep telling you - YOU AREN'T CHANGING!! YOU ARE BECOMING!

Me: Becoming who?

God: Becoming who I created you to be!

A person of light and love and charity and hope and courage and joy and mercy and grace and compassion.

I made you for more than the shallow pieces you have decided adorn yourself with that you cling to with such greed and fear.

Let those things fall off of you.

I love you! Don't change! Become! Become! Become!

Become who I made you to be.

I'm going to keep telling you this until you remember it.

Me: There goes another piece.

God: Yep. Let it be.

Me: So...I'm not broken?

God: No - but you are breaking like the dawn. It's a new day. Become!! Become!!

Author ~ John Roedel

Nicole

Sacred Wild Woman Medicine

Artist~ Henn Kim