Shattered...

I have no heart to be here talking... I'm dying inside... I'm hurting inside... I'm shattered.

Lets face it, I'm no prize, but when I met my husband I thought I was the luckiest girl in the world. How cliche is that?? Is my own fault. I knew something was wrong. I chose to ignore it and pray it would die on its own. Well it didn't. It got worse. I'm a fucking dumbass. I really feel like dying right now... Don't like living.

He's cheating on me. I caught him Sunday. I walked out of the bedroom and he shoved something in his pocket. When I confronted him about it he said it was a "toy" and that he was embarrassed to show me it. I didn't let him off that easy.  Long story short... He had a pre paid cell phone which he was texting his lover with. God I can't do this right now...I wanna scream!!!?.,,!!